AGAIN

Again–What am I even doing?!

Muster enough strength for an application,

again.

Haul self into mirror,

again.

Work on self,

again.

Practice, polish and make self “good enough”,

again.

Face demons,

again.

Throw self from frying pan into fire,

AGAIN.

Getting excited,

again.

Getting hopes up,

again.

Seeing the horizon,

again.

Feeling confident,

again.

Arrives at false summit,

again.

breaks ankle, falls down mountain,

again.

Consumed by pride,

again.

Destroyed by self,

again.

Nobody is making me do this. I am doing this to myself,

again.

I will keep trying.

without trying,

there is just being.

Being SUCKS

I fucking hate being.

Will keep trying, instead.


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