are you looking for something?
are you looking for someone?
looking for me, maybe?
searching for a way to feel less lonely
we are all looking for it
I am searching all the time
I will never stop searching
I search when I am alone
I search in a crowd
the loneliness doesn’t care
how many people are around
she lives inside me
she eats my fears
she’s fat as fuck
and she stinks like piss
my loneliness never leaves
she sits there, eating too much salt
rubbing sugar on her teeth
making it too awkward for me to leave
staying in the house is always free
the others would just laugh, shuffle
avoid and whisper, surely
I know everyone is afraid of me
My loneliness tells me, you see
she whispers sweet nothings, charming anxieties
Lonely, yes, but not with me
loneliness lives and breeds within me
keeping me company, loving me best.
I should just stay home and sleep, she says
instead of risking having company
reject me, disown me
I’ve been down that road before, and
I’d rather be lonely