Confidence

I’m so much more

Confident

Than I used to be

I don’t worry about

What other people

Think of me

Nearly as much

As I did

Pre-T

I am tempted to

Assign all of the credit

To testosterone

And its effects on me

And my body

However–

I think I might

Finally be realizing

What dysphoria is

And why it is so deadly

I am now

Overwhelmed with hope for

What my future holds

And can now

See things in myself

And my mind and my body

That I take pride in everyday

I wonder often

Why I wasted

My whole life

Feeling so shitty

But I didn’t know any of this

About myself

Until recently

So who gives a shit

Honestly

Of course now

There is the fear

Of losing something

Because I have things

I’d like to keep, for once

Like my confidence

And my pulse


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