Internalized Homophobia

I hate a lot of people, but

Honestly, I don’t hate anyone or

Anything more, than internally homophobic gay people–

Which is hilarious to me because 

My hatred of them is quite literally

A form of internalized homophobia 

I meet other gay people who

Wish I would

“tone it down” or that

“They don’t have my problems” because well

They are normal and I am a

Weird fucky kinda queer who just

Doesn’t want to play by the rules and I’m like

ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS

YOU THINK YOU ARE PLAYING BY THE RULES

AND I’M NOT?! I’M NOT PLAYING A FUCKING GAME

WITH MY LIFE, I AM JUST TRYING TO SURVIVE!

IT’S NOT BREAKING RULES IF THE ALTERNATIVE

BREAKS YOU DOWN

SORRY I DON’T WANT TO LIVE MY WHOLE LIFE

PRETENDING TO BE SOME STRAIGHT CIS ASSCLOWN

I COULDN’T IF I TRY

I CAN’T EVEN TURN THIS FUCKING CAPS LOCK OFF

BECAUSE THINKING ABOUT YOUR FUCKING

GARBAGE SHIT IS TOO MUCH FOR ME

FUCKING

HOLY

FUCK

I’d say

Go to hell but

You take me there, just looking

Into your sad, souless

Half-life eyes


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